Had a meltdown yesterday at clinic. I now have to have an annual drug test because I am on vicodin. I feel like a f*cking criminal. I am so tired of life.

Road trip

All of a sudden I am in the mood for a road trip. Stay in a hotel, eat out, watch movies. Maybe I can swing it in October or November.

1st day 90mg Cymbalta

Yesterday edgy, couldn't take a nap, started 90 mg Cymbalta today. Very edgy, but that was before I even took the Cymbalta. Maybe having to do all the watering made me edgy, and Sophie is definitely not helping. Also my eyesight is very blurry, worse than I think it's ever been. Don't know if it's the Cymbalta or not. Crap!

Depressed!

Depressed today & yesterday, but maybe cuz Buster isn't getting better. Plus listening to music that isn't helping.

I miss the life I never had.

Migraine today

Migraine today, yesterday very depressed. Called & left message for Dr. need medication change. My vision is also very blurry today.

Mood much better

Yesterday upped my Cymbalta to 2/day. Blurry vision has mostly disappeared. Mood is decent, but wish it was better. This heat is killing me. At least I slept a bit this morning.

Very pissy this afternoon

Starting Cymbalta 7 days ago, yesterday very depressed, this afternoon after migraine went away became very pissy. I am ready to fight everyone!